September 10, 2012

It's only Monday and I am already exhausted.. Hopefully this week goes by fast. I just want the weekend to be here! I'm tired of all the people here judging everyone and being rude. I would do anything to go to the same school as Ivan. It's been a year since we have been going to different schools. Another year is gonna be hard but I'm sure we can do it. He is the one and I'm sure of that. I've never felt this way about someone.

September 9, 2012

Spending the day at church is always good for the soul. We celebrated the birthdays and anniversaries today. It's been a while since I've been to church and it feels so good to be back.

September 8, 2012

It's starting to get a little colder outside. We are having a cold front right now and I am loving it. Today has been a pretty lazy day, just getting some stuff done around the house for the next week to come. I am very nervous about this week coming up. It will be the third week of school and I already have test coming. Trying to study for those test is miserable. I need to learn better study habits because the ones I have now just don't seem to be working very well. I have an algebra 2 test and a chemistry test this week. Will I pass? I must! This year I am planning to keep my grades up because I will also be getting a job which means I will have to work extra hard on my grades. 

I've been thinking lately about why me and Ivan never fight. I'm not saying it's a bad thing but, it is rare. Lately he's been proving to me that he is the one. Now i know that I'm only 15 going on 16 but anybody can fall in love. I have. He never lets me down even when I think he will. But, see that's the thing, I've been expecting to much out of him... When in return the only person I am letting down is myself. I just need to learn to be happy with who he is, because who he is, is the reason I fell in love. 

Is it bad that I don't know how to tell my mother how much I appreciate her? Telling her thank you and how much I love her just sometimes doesn't feel enough. She is always telling me that I don't appreciate anything she does but I really do. I know I'm not the best child in the world but instead of drinking and doing other things teenagers do, I am here blogging. Sometimes I wish she knew just how much I appreciate the love she gives me and all the things she does. It's safe to say that she is the best mother I could ask for. And I love her for that.